It all began with an incident in which Rom and I went shopping in a luxury shop. While I was waiting for the cashier to process my payment, I checked around and commented on one item: "Wow... This is fucking pricey!!!". Then, the cashier's face changed abruptly and she seemed to be annoyed by my saying. Later on, Rom rebuked me for my spoken words. He said: "You should not have said so!!!". I was taken aback by his words. Yet, I just let the situation slip through pretty fast without further thinking.
The day after that, there was another argument between me and Rom that was akin to the above situation: I uttered things (although unintentional) that hurt others' feelings. Consequently, I decided to make phone calls to my close friends and ask them whether I had done the same thing to them. And to my surprise, the answer was "Yes", they knew that I had not meant to hurt them; they just accepted the way I was.
I gave it a lot of thoughts. And I realized that I was actually a culprit in those situations; the repercussions were real. I cannot use an excuse that those words were just accidentally spoken out loud. The hearer did feel pains and my action was inexcusable. I had to face the conviction that I deserved to be inflicted on. Rom said that: "Although I am 27 now but my mindset is the same as a 2.7-year-old child. It's high time I had to be mindful with my oral words or one day, I will hurt beloved people around me even deeper.
Being unconscious is more dangerous than being aware of your own behavior. I know it is still a long way to go to control my thoughtless mouth: an evil mouth that kills people without bloodshed.
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